from chris lloyd
to pm@pm.gc.ca
date Dec 2, 2019, 6:51 PM
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Dear Justin,
We met with our mediator this morning, after I had a weekend mostly to myself – Clo had taken the kids to Gatineau to visit with her parents Saturday overnight. I met with Anne about building her bookshelves, and Anna my new landlady to get keys to the new apartment, and even bought a used stove and washing machine to be delivered next week. Also had revelatory discussions with SRoberts, Sarah Wendt and Clark. And also worked a bit on the bathroom and continued cleaning and sorting and packing and dumping studio and workshop stuff.
So the takeaway from the meeting this morning is that Claudine will check with her father and the bank and communicate with me via email this week with some propolas which will most likely involve a large chunk of the $92K with a type of payment plan for the remainder. This is what we will have to come to terms with; I don’t want a large part of my financial interests tied up in the house or in her hands. I was surprised that she didn’t ask about selling the apartment, which leads me to suspect that she may be able to buy me out, surely with her father’s help. She acknowledged and apologized again for the error she made in her calculations in her offer from 3 weeks ago. She reiterated that she wants to put all this behind us and develop a new relationship – but I don’t think she knows yet (how could she? I haven’t been speaking or texting or writing her) that I don’t think I want that with her. We are tied to each other because of the kids, but I don’t want a friendship with her, at least not now. Maybe not ever. She still doesn’t know what I know, and even if she did, she would conveniently excuse her behavior away, chalk it up to “true love” and still claim to love me and then want to have a whole new sparkly friendship with me, all my good qualities, just not the sex. Fuck that!
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from chris lloyd
to pm@pm.gc.ca
date Dec 9, 2019, 7:55 PM
(no subject)
Dear justin,
We met with our mediator again this morning, to finalize terms of our agreement and our divorce. A lot happened last week:
Claudine accepted my offer, and in one lump sum payment as well. But then she wanted to subtract my share of our shared line of credit, which I agreed to, But then I realized after the fact that she was double dipping again because that line of credit is included in our mortgage. When I brought it to her attention she realized it was a mistake and now my settlement is back up to around $95,000.
My flight back to Montreal was cancelled on Friday due to mechanical problems with the plane. The new flight was at 6 AM Saturday morning, so I arrived to meet the kids and watch Stranger Things and then met my appliances on delivery, and moved a few more things into my new apartment Sunday morning
Went swimming with the kids and Oona Saturday afternoon, Rose had a birthday party at Phone Koos Sunday afternoon and Claude and I met for a few minutes to decide what I am taking and what I am leaving. I’m not taking very much, as I don’t want many reminders of her at my new place.
I still find it tense and awkward to be around her.
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from chris lloyd
to pm@pm.gc.ca
date Dec 10, 2019, 8:55 PM
(no subject)
Dear Justin,
Our mediator works really fast; she has prepared all our divorce papers ready for signature.
This morning I printed and signed and had Judith witness a power of attorney letter to send to Claudine to Expedia ate our agreement and my payment, except her notary wouldn’t except it and suggested a lawyer on my end sign it. So I asked Mel, who looked at the document and wouldn’t sign it without me consulting my lawyer in Montreal first. Which I did, and she suggested I not grant power of attorney at all, and sign and FedEx the documents to wherever they need to go.
If Money makes the world go around, then I think it must be lawyers who tell it how fast.
I’m picking the van up Thursday afternoon, so Robyn and I can load up my stuff and my dad and I can leave really early Friday morning. I borrowed some money from Judith to cover all my legal and divorce filing and van rental and new kids furniture purchases, but I am afraid the money I transferred to my credit card may not show up by Thursday and that could complicate The van rental process.
I feel pretty good emotionally. The closer we get to the settlement, the finale of the divorce, the end of my contract and Saint John and moving into my new place, the holidays and judith visiting early in the new year to help me decorate, all of this is really helping me finally get over Claudine. The fact that I see her in a whole new light helps as well.
If I was a betting person I certainly wouldn’t put any money down on the long-term success of her current relationship, and that actually makes me a little sad for her. I really do think she made a big mistake because she didn’t want to do the hard work that is sometimes necessary in a marriage.
Oh well.
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from chris lloyd
to pm@pm.gc.ca
date Dec 12, 2019, 1:18 AM
(no subject)
Dear justin,
It seems like my new sleep schedule goes something like this:
Fall asleep between 930 and 1030. Wake up between midnight and 1 AM. Unable to sleep for An hour or two or three. Eventually fall asleep, have fitful dreams, wake up between six and seven.
Despite the separation and divorce agreement being almost settled, and my heart feeling healed, and my desire to know all the details subsiding, I still have occasional running thoughts.
Tonight I was going through all our texting exchanges from August 1, from receipt of the break up letter. It seems we’ve gone from trying to keep as much of the family unit in tact, I’ll be at with me living separately, all of that under the auspice is of my own naivety, to a hard and final divorce.
And I think I’m OK with that.
Although it is not very Buddhist of me to want her relationship with Steve to crash and burn. Which it probably will, founded as it is on deceit and desire and secrecy and drugs.
Maybe she will heal and become more at peace with herself when she is left alone. Are there self-help groups for unaware narcissists?
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from chris lloyd
to pm@pm.gc.ca
date Dec 16, 2019, 10:09 PM
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Dear justin,
I survived the moving weekend. I picked up the van Thursday afternoon, Robyn helped me load up my furniture and I met my dad Friday morning early and we hit the road. Had a good drive and we were in Montreal in time to pick up the kids after school. It was our go go go weekend: unloading loading and unloading and then re-loading and unloading the van; Eduardo helped, So did Pascal and sarah, the kids were great, and Claudine threw a birthday party for Rose on Sunday taking her and some friends to the pool, and I made an apple crumble and helped the girls make a cabin of cardboard in the basement.
There is a bit of a glitch in house soon I will get my settlement because the notary we met on Friday is not certified to deal with the type of undivided condo which we own.
We drove back to Saint John today, and I am staying overnight at my parents.
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from chris lloyd
to pm@pm.gc.ca
date Dec 19, 2019, 7:15 PM
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Dear justin,
What a weird coincidence yesterday. I was listening to the Dolly Parton‘s America podcast, the one about 9 to 5 and Jolene, and then went about my day, my parents met me at Judith and ROBERTS at five and we went to Best Buy so I could get Rose her drawing tablet and a WebCam for her drawing class, And as soon as we arrived out at my parents house my dad turned on the TV and the very first thing on the very first channel when he turned on the TV was the movie 9 to 5! So we watched it of course, and realized it was the first time any of us had watched it. It holds up, in a weird way. In light of the need to movement, and the fact that equal pay Is still an issue, almost makes it relevant. Anyway, I am appreciating her as a singer/songwriter and performer and just genuinely a great person. She never seems to be able to speak badly of anyone, and I admire that. It is something I try to live up to myself, with mixed results, obviously.
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from chris lloyd
to pm@pm.gc.ca
date Dec 30, 2019, 10:51 PM
(no subject)
Dear Justin,
Sorry I haven’t written in a while, you know, vacation and all. I’ve been back and forth to Montréal, Saint John, Charlottetown, Saint John, and back here, home? Home for now I guess.
Started the floor sanding project at SBC with Eduardo, I also have to get wood for Ann’s shelves, and tomorrow is the New Year’s party at Alexis and Adams Studio, Claudine and Steve will probably be there, so I am preparing myself in advance. Which means just trying to roll with it.
2019 was quite the year, wasn’t it?
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