2022
from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
date May 1, 2022, 2:37 PM subject 70 – 360 – 0105
Dear Justin,
Despite another positive test I took Sol and his friend Zack to a CFMTL soccer match at Stade Saputo yesterday. We wore our masks at all times, until the boys gathered on an outdoor soccer pitch and played some soccer of their own with other kids. I think they had more fun playing than watching the game. Sol was quite uncomfortable and hot, as we were seated directly in the hot sun.
I wrote some poetic texts to Jessica explaining the complex and conflicting feelings I was having throughout the experience. Following is a transcript:
It is
So hot
And so loud
Stomping the bleachers
Aluminum and concrete quivers and shakes
It is hell wrapped in blazing sun and served with a side of pale beer
Like the crush of a human pyramid risking collapse into the dust of eternal oblivion
The Beautiful Sport colliding and entwined forevermore with the blazing poking snakes of capitalism In your eyes
Oh the humanity
Hell is truly a place where a can of Stella costs $12.50 and a soggy Steamie is $5.25
A slight reprieve, a slice of heaven, appears as a plastic bowl of $9 couscous
It is Hell so why does a part of me love it
I cannot succumb but yet I have no choice
The open air fills me with the last summer days of pre 9/11
The Apocalypse is heralded with the screams and chants of
Soccer Moms
Jersey Shore two rows in front screams sporadically yet regularly
Her love for Joachim Torres, the small attacker with the orange cleats
Who wears number 10 on his back but never acknowledges her cries
She loses her voice attempting to rouse the crowd in a moderately successful wave She stands watch over her love
Aller
Aller
Aller Aller Aller
Montreal!
STOMP STOMP
Montreal!
STOMP STOMP
Montreal Aller Aller
What is irony?
When Jersey Shore leaves for a pee break and her love scores the go-ahead goal with 5 minutes remaining She’s at it again
This time poor Zack averts his eyes as she has stripped down to a sports bra and tights
If Hell has an unstoppable timer:
45 minutes of play
2 minutes extra time
15 minutes break
45 minutes of play
2 minutes extra time
What could be heaven but the free form play of children which could last forever or a day or a month or a year
Every second brings me here
Living this dystopian life to the fullest -fin-
What do you think? Anyhow Jess is coming over and we are going to cycle down to the CCA to see the show before I go to work there tomorrow to start taking it down. Sol went off to play some soccer with Zack and Rose is sill feeling sick and so will stay home and draw. She is getting so good. I think her drafting and character-building skills are better than mine at this point. I’m feeling very much a proud papa. Oh, I already went to Vox this morning to get my work computer so I can work on files from home. Homework! Yay fun.
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from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
date May 2, 2022, 10:28 PM subject 71 – 190 – 0205
Dear Justin,
I tested the kids tonight after watching Ragnarok with them and now Sol is negative and Rose is positive. I’m not sure what to do I feel she can’t stay home again it has been 5 days now of isolation, and they are supposed to go to their mom’s tomorrow after school so I can work my 2 other jobs after the CCA this week, at least until Friday when I get them again. At least Sol had some online Teams work today but Rose’s teacher was away last week and today with Covid as well. Rose is drawing lots but she is also watching lots of her animé programs. Today was the first day of deinstall at the CCA I took framed prints that were not art or part of collections and stacked them up in an unused corner of the basement basement. I watched Hunt for the Wilderpeople with Jess last night I had watched it before and totally forgot that Taika Waititi directed it, so good! Looking forward to the next Thor. I need to go and have a shower it has been too long. Oh, did you hear that another insurer backed out of Trans Mountain? Apparently this makes 18 insurance companies to ditch the dirty project. Does this worry you at all? Do you think you maybe made a bad decision to buy it? Are you afraid to cut your losses? You could be suffering from Sunken Cost Fallacy. My advice? Pull the plug.
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from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
date May 5, 2022, 8:47 PM subject 72 – 347 – 0405
Dear Justin,
Another day, another fistful of dollars. Something like $175, minus the tax, which I’ll get back in roughly a years time, and the CPP and QPP contributions, which I’ll start seeing after I am 65. Maybe.
I wrote this last night and forgot to send it?
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- ° Chris Lloyd
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from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
date May 5, 2022, 9:58 PM subject 73 – 283 – 0505
Dear Justin,
Another day, more dollars. Technically working 4 jobs today. Was at the CCA for the day, full demo mode, swinging a 75-lb sledgehammer around like a maniac. Stopped at bathroom reno job to put up the last wood exoskeleton. Working on the Sketchup animation for the Nico William art proposal, and then I need to refine some plans for Vox. And then Jess and I need to spend some carnal time together as the kids are back with me again tomorrow. We stopped for a drink and a pizza on a patio at some restaurant on Laurier est after works today, we’re having homemade Old Fashioneds now. And I’m working on Sketchup plans. Also, have you heard of Beeple? He’s an artist who last year sold a NFT of an art project of his – 5000 images of collages he has made daily since 2007 – for the modest sum of $69-million. Do you think I could turn my Dear PM project into a NFT and sell it for a million dollars? I’d be happy with a million dollars. If I had a million dollars…
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- ° Chris Lloyd
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from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
date May 10, 2022, 10:46 PM subject 75 – 169 – 1005
Dear Justin,
Another day, blistering hot, productive but mostly just laying carpet and then cutting shapes and assembling cardboard, working numbers for the next build. Wage labour, even if not laborious, it happens. Successful bike ride to and from school, priming the kids to come home themselves on Thursday as I plan to attend a big rally in support of the Wet’suwet’en in their fight against CGL. We’ll be targeting RBC, of course. Supper was easy, quinoa and veggie sausage – I think the only kind the kids like is the Field Roast brand, apple and sage tonight but they also like the hotdoggy-tasting frankfurters. What makes that flavour? a pinch of liquid smoke? Won a 2-day game of 5 Crowns with the kids, taking turns playing each a song, we have wildly divergent tastes in music. I’m either Arcade Fire or Tragically Hip lately, the kids find it depressing, Rose is all Jpop, manga-style speed pop, Sol listening to mumble rap he’s gleaning from playing Fortnite. Anyway I’m tired as always at this time of night going to bed to talk to Jess on the phone. Tomorrow I’m wearing shorts to work, the sun is still shining.
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- ° Chris Lloyd
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from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
cc Steven.Guilbeault@parl.gc.ca, chrystia.freeland@parl.gc.ca, justin.trudeau@parl.gc.ca date May 11, 2022, 10:23 PM
subject 76 – 216 – 1105
Dear Justin,
How in the world can you justify a $10 billion loan guarantee for the Trans Mountain pipeline expansion? Please acknowledge that you are suffering from Sunk Cost Fallacy. It was a mistake to buy it when it was “only” costing $4.5 billion. 18 insurers have pulled out, and more will continue to do so. This pipeline is untenable, unethical and wrong. We can’t make our climate commitments with increases and expansion of the fossil fuel industry, you all know this. Just do the right thing, fuck. Oh, and stop CGL as well. I’m attending a rally tomorrow in support of the Wet’suwet’en. Chief Na’moks will be there at 1 Place Ville Marie, the main RBC branch, and hopefully hundreds of supporter will show up to continue to denounce that banks colossal funding of fossil fuel projects. I’m right now deciding which RBC branch I am going to adopt and start picketing to raise awareness of their lies, hypocrisy and Greenwashing. Steven, you are quite aware of the concept of greenwashing, no? Bay Nord anyone? Justin, you were so right when you mistakenly referred to Canada as a company. It is basically a mining corporation wearing a flag to impersonate a country.
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- ° Chris Lloyd
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from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
date May 18, 2022, 10:25 PM subject 75 – 166 – 1805
Dear Hypocrite,
Sorry I haven’t written lately, it was a bonkers weekend and I haven’t quite recovered. Jess’ friend Alex came for a visit and was with us from Thursday to Monday. We went to see the Musée Point à Callières on Saturday, that evening introduced us to Youtube videos of Puppet History – hilarious. Sunday morning we drove out to the farm in St. Louis de Gonzague to pick up Ramsay, who is now tucked into his parking spot out back. Then I spent the rest of the afternoon working on the bathroom project, getting to the first coat of plaster, but I really don’t know when I’ll get to the second coat. Working full-time, Monday to Friday really kinda sucks, but I knew it would, and just need to get through it, lending my time ans body and mind out for a couple months should help pay off my credit card and accumulating expenses from travelling. I might not have enough hours to be eligible for EI this summer so I should just work as much as I can. Even so, I find myself refusing work, little jobs and even mid-sized ones, as I just don’t have the time or energy. I feel I’ve been tired the past couple weeks, so very tired. The constant stream of bad and depressing news doesn’t help, doesn’t help at all. I’ve been chosen an RBC branch to adopt, ironically out in Outremont, literally 2 minutes from my old place on Bernard. I need to get a crew together and start planning some events. I’ve already postered around it tonight after work, and I did outside Fairmont as well. Hit Jean Talon and the small one on Chabot over the weekend. Jess made great posters on the risograph of the bear eating the lion. I need to cover the entire poster with clear tape as the inks are water-soluble. I should be setting up my group but the Action Network website is too complicated for my brain at the moment. I should also be working on my taxes. I really just need to get some sleep. How do you do it, getting up early, working at lying all day and sucking up to the oil and gas and banking lobbies, and then cook supper and wash dishes and do this day in, day out? I need to switch my bank too, I’ll start just with the TSFA and see about migrating my chequing account later when no so busy. Who do you bank with? If it is RBC you really should switch to a credit union, or some financial institution that has already divested from funding dirty fuel. See, it’s already happening!
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from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
date May 24, 2022, 10:06 PM subject 76 – 91 – 2405
Dear Justin,
Don’t you worry, I am still alive. Just feel so, so busy. Working 8:30 – 4:30 (paid for 7 hours, lunches not included) plus commute is tiring! The show is coming along – damn I have no time to write now, goodnight.
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- ° Chris Lloyd
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from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
date May 26, 2022, 10:52 PM subject 77 – 174 – 2605
Dear Justin,
I am still alive, still too busy to write to liars and hypocrites and opportunists such as yourself. Learning about OJ Pipelines and their parent company Quantra Services, the contractors doing the dirty work of drilling for CGL. Not the dirty work of harassment done by the RCMP, that’s on you.
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- ° Chris Lloyd
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from chris lloyd to pm@pm.gc.ca
date May 30, 2022, 12:05 AM subject 78 – 136 – 2905
Dear Justin,
my car is full of old crap art and sketchbooks my Ex had me pick up from her basement as the renovations are finished from the flood in the basement. Jess and I had a good time the other night going through my art school era sketchbooks. I’ve been going through my email trying to reduce clutter, deleting over ten thousand unread messages. There are still so many to go! I’m using 96% of my Google space. Skimming through these email is a little like time travel, being reminded of people, places and events from so long ago, pre-pandemic, pre-divorce, I’m back to 2014, before you were PM, back in the Harper years, ha! And we thought things were bad back then. How foolish of us!
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- ° Chris Lloyd
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DEAR PM 